it's just been one of those months...

Last month on March 18th DJ lost his grandma.  This month on April 18th I lost my grandma, Joyce Angelee Ball.  She lived in Tennessee and had been ill for a long time now.  She is truly in a better place and isn't in pain anymore.  I can't say enough good things about how sweet and kind she was.  The most positive and beautiful woman you could ever know.

This was part of a series of pictures my grandma sent to my grandpa while he was in the service.

My mom called me on Wednesday in the early afternoon.  I just knew something was wrong because my mom would know that I would be at work.  I happened to take a very early lunch and was able to answer my cell phone.  My mom was crying and told me that my grandma had passed away in her sleep.  I was speechless.  Literally speechless.  I didn't cry right away.  I told my mom I had to let her go.  I poured my cereal, ate lunch in silence and headed back to work.  I had a million things running through my mind.  I thought about how I would never hear her sweet southern accent say, "Buh bye, I love you." and I instantly sobbed.  I lost it in my truck that very moment.  I was about a mile from work and I just couldn't get it together.  I parked, wiped away my tears and walked through the door.  Instantly someone asked me if I was okay.  I could hardly say the words that my grandma had passed away.  Again I sobbed.  I walked immediately to the back room so clients didn't see me and my boss hugged me while I cried.  She drove me home and I spent the afternoon crying, cleaning and cutting fruit.  I just couldn't stop moving.  I needed to be doing something.  Laying there still was torture.

Gorgeous

 DJ came home and we made plans to drive down to Tennessee for the funeral services.  We left on Saturday and got in quite late.  It had been an exhausting few days and a 9 hour drive to Kingsport was a long one.  In the morning we met up with my aunt and uncle.  It was so great to see her and over the next two days we spent lots of time with them and she told me so many things that I never knew about my grandma.  It was sad but lovely to spend the time with family.

I've been sent lots of love and prayers from friends and family and they have not gone unnoticed.  Thank you to everyone for all the love.